Let’s do a simple one.

Not much has been going on lately. I go to the gym. I hang out with Gary. I hang out with Ryan. Right at this very second I’m actually thrilled that this is all there is, but that feeling comes and goes. Right NOW I’m actually happy. Energized. Content.

I lost 6.2 pounds this week and I’m thrilled with that since it’s been slow going for a few weeks now. I am slendering right out. Sort of. A bit.

I’m going to a show on Friday. I’m terribly uncomfortable with this, as the last one I went to was less than fun. I was a bit high and way older than all but four of the people there. I also saw Matt and he made me, without intending to or even necessarily knowing he did it, feel like a complete failure and loser. Needless to say, I left that show as soon as possible. I doubt this one will be all that much better, and it’s going to be a whole lot more crowded. My goal is to try really really hard to not have a panic attack and just support my friend. But goddamn it’s hard to do. SO HARD.

On a side note, I’ve pretty much fallen in love with Kanye West’s “Amazing.” The guy is chock full of bad attitude, and most of his music I can take or leave, but this song I absolutely adore. Minus the weird low quality sound of his voice. I caught his Storytellers, and it was beautiful. So much light. Amazing, you might say…ho ho! Clever.